On Sunday, I participated in my fourth race of Raceolution 2011. It wasn’t exactly a success for me, personally, but the race as a whole was an awesome success! What race was it? The She.Is.Beautiful 10k (there is also a 5k), also known as Santa Cruz’s Pinkest Race.
Everyone was decked out in pink, and so were all the decorations. There were these awesome signs all along the course:
^ Sooo true!
There were also some amazing views:
What wasn’t so amazing? The return of the knee in my pain that got bad at Bay to Breakers the week before. As such, I finished in approx 1:06. Which, I know isn’t awful for a 10k. But I really struggled with this, given the fact that for the first three miles I was in the top 8 women, before the pain hit in my repaired knee. And when the pain hit, I ended up walking a lot of the remainder of the race.
There were lots of tears shed – my biggest competition in myself, and I was frustrated to have to walk a race. The hardest part was, unfortunately, that only two people of the probable 100-150 people who passed me once I started limping (yes I had to limp-walk-jog most of the second half) didn’t even acknowledge or ask if I was okay. Most people ignored, a few people asked me to get out of the way. I was really disappointed in the comraderie of the race. I guess I miss the “Minnesota Nice” that I grew up with – Californians just don’t have it.
Eventually, I got over the fact I couldn’t actually ‘race,’ and finished – with a smile. Afterall, I got a free dark chocolate bar from Whole Foods.
Who couldn’t be happy with this view practically at your doorstep?!
Post-race lunch? Amy’s Gluten-Free, Dairy Free PIZZA!
It was, surprisingly, pretty darn good.
So, I enjoyed the race, the post race goodies were good (I love the tshirt, but its dirty, so I’ll post a photo of it after/before another race), and I’m coming to terms with the fact that even though I didn’t do my best, I still finished the race. And that’s what counts.
Knee Update? I went to the doc yesterday, have a few weeks of rehab, and then I’m seeing an orthoped. It might just be runner’s knee, but there is a lot of clicking, so there might be some cartilage damage that requires surgery – but I’ll know in a few weeks after I see the orthoped. I’m crossing my fingers and hoping for the best – here’s to lots of crosstraining, and dealing with the stress of not being able to run.
What do you do when a race/run/project doesn’t go as planned? How do you deal with the frustration? I had to walk myself through a lot of mental conversations. Accepting that walking was better for me in the long run – especially with the hefty fall race schedule I have planned. I also had to remind myself that my overall health and wellbeing is more important that just one race – I have only a few moments of the race, and a lifetime with my body. It was hard, since I am a fierce competitor with myself, but after about 20 minutes of mentally struggling, I was able to overcome, and adjust to ‘just finishing.’